I don’t remember exactly how she told me. Maybe her firstborn (just barely one then) wore a “big sister” shirt. Maybe, across half the world over FaceTime, she just gave me the wide-eyed excited-but-this-is-crazy face and told me over, “Guess what! I’m PREGNANT.” Either way, I was excited for her. We had both been awaiting […]
This week busted me open. Wide open. On one day, there was rage over injustice in one tragedy and celebration over a major victory, and then there was a loss. Oh, the loss. I lost a sweet nephew before he was due to arrive (but not by much) and I have no words about that […]
Hey, you guys. Today has been a hard day and my heart is completely dizzy from a range of emotions from a whole bunch of different things and I simply have no words. So I’m going to share someone else’s words. I’ve shared Andrew Peterson’s music before. His music is figuring pretty prominently in my […]
October is miscarriage and infant loss awareness month. It’s also the month that Hope would be six months old. Miscarriage affects one in four women (according to some statistics) and it is such a silent loss that many of those women feel alone. So I will continue to bring it up from time to time, in hopes of making the one in four feel just a little less alone.
Mother’s Day is just around the corner. I hope this is a good day for you. I hope you have a chance to celebrate your mom and be celebrated by your kids and your husband. This motherhood gig is hard, and you’re totally nailing it. For some of you, this is reality. Maybe you have […]
We’re coming into my very favorite time of the year, and this year is extra awesome because, not only are we going down to work at the marriage conference, but we’re staying a couple extra nights, making this our longest kidless trip since Jenna was born. And I can finally feel this baby regularly (despite […]
We had the big, long 20 week ultrasound today. (Clarification for the uninitiated: it took like 90 minutes, NOT 20 weeks. It happens at twenty weeks. In case you were concerned.) I had some suspicions based on my symptoms that it might be a girl, but then on the way out of the house, I […]
Tomorrow’s the ultrasound. THE ultrasound. Theoretically the one where we see the baby’s kidneys and various major arteries and all fingers and toes and, if we’re lucky, maybe gender.
[Disclaimer: This post is fairly long (for me) and personal. Maybe to the point of overshare. Like the first post, my goal here is not to describe the general experience of miscarriage, but rather to bring it one more small step into the light. By sharing my story I hope to make it easier for […]
I’m in a really weird mood and I’m about to overshare in an obnoxious and rambling way. Please feel free to skip. …if you don’t want to skip and want to read the continuation, it’s here. So… I joined a club this week, I guess. Unfortunately. It’s not the club I wanted to […]